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Aaaaaaa

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Hi it's been a while since I've really touched dA. Part of my issue with the site is just how clunky it is, and it's been hard for me to navigate things aside from my page and gallery. Stash remains the same although I don't use it as much anymore, and the majority of my (artistic) online activity is over on YouTube with speedpaints and the occasional stream, Toyhouse and a Discord server I share with some irl friends.


Honestly I don't think that my dA page is something I'll be able to keep up with due to the general design being hard for me to use. Of course I'll keep my page and all the art I've done up, but otherwise I probably won't post much here unless I'm especially proud of a piece I did or come by to fav stuff others tag me in.


This part may be sappy but, to the friends I made here, thank you so much for being part of the reason I kept drawing, especially weredragon666- RPing with you was SO much fun and I loved drawing Beats and Color Killer making each other laugh :,> I hope you're doing okay and that you're still drawing! /gen


I also wanna apologize to the people who I harassed/upset! As a younger teen I definitely has some issues happening in my home life, but it's definitely not something I should have taken out on strangers on the internet by being petty/spiteful and mean/rude. It's not something I'm really proud of, and I hope y'all are doing alright.


If anyone wants to see what the fuck I'm up to, your best bet is my TH and YT. I like talking about my characters, and Toyhou.se is a GREAT place to do that, and I'm starting to do more drawing streams on YouTube when I have the time and motivation to do them (plus I like making speedpaints)!


https://toyhou.se/17-poprocks


https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5LlFzqyV0zqUoTsZRhtTrQ


Otherwise @ the people who stuck around on dA even after Eclipse hit, you are braver than any US Marine, I don't know how you do it but damn. Props.


See y'all on the flip side <3 I want a taco.

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whats up thots

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its ya boy Alex back at it again. I'm using my old computer rn because my current one is being a little bitch and won't factory reset properly so I'll probably be running things from this guy for the rest of the week. anyway uhhh let's update you guys since i haven't talked about anything personal since......... 2 years ago basically. 

so like, the rest of 2018 is nothing spectacular really, just run of the mill depression and zero motivation to do anything. most of 2019 was like that up until October, so like let's give you the rundown

:bulletorange: October
-ex-boyfriend from 7th grade died. this starts the spiral
-crabdad was adamant about telling me he didn't think id like it in Gainesville, and that it would ruin my relationship with Brooke.
-gain minor support from crabdad 5 minutes before leaving town.
-i go to Gainsville to see if i'd like to move down, i like it enough.
-i got back upstate to start packing

:bulletred: November
-tuna died. commence further descent into the spiral, this cat meant the world to me and his death fucked me up royally.
-things get better in tally, and i dont realize the need to move was no longer necessary.
-gain more support from crabdad

:bulletgreen: December
-move to Gainesville
-shit has hit the fan, lose friendship 3x combo
-move back to tally
-have a mental breakdown over spilling paint on the carpet.
-gain even more support from crabdad

:bulletblue: January
-fucks up, lose girlfriend 
-goes to the fucking psych ward three days later
-immediately understands everything because holy shit alex has evolved! 
-get out of the ward, make amends and literally understand that i am what is wrong with my life, so i need to fix myself. 


uhhh yeah that's been the past 4 months of my life and like, now im doing a million times better! it's great, and i love the fact that i don't live every day dreading the next, im actually looking forward to things now. 

anyway im gonna work on my page and when my computer is back up i'll get to posting finished stuff more frequently, and maybe some wips because those are fun

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Incoming Art!

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I'm about to upload a bunch of stuff that I just. Forgot to post rip! Some of these have speedpaint links so be sure to check them out! uwu

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Feelings- Good, Bad and Skin Related

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Skin Journals are marked with :bulletpurple:
Sad/Bad Day Recaps are marked with :bulletblack:
Happy/Good Day Recaps are marked with :bulletorange:


:bulletorange::bulletblack:
June 18th 2018

"Wow Okay"

Henlo friens its me alex uh
so clearly i havent been on here in a while, ive been dealing with some whack art stump for the past month or two, mostly bc im like
"wow everything i draw looks the same and im not sure how i can change it!"
which given my depression makes everything translate to
"wow everything i draw is SHIT and there is NO WAY I'LL GET BETTER"
and i know somewhere that isn't true BUT! if anyone can help out with getting me out of this stump that would be fantastic!!!
i think i need to look up refrences more often and like,,,,,,,,, i feel like i need to get better with perspective and whatnot :P (Lick)
anyway yeah sorry for never being on here, im still alive and doing okay! 
i do have some medical issues that are being worked out (birth control bc im 17 and "dude i know ur gonna get freaky in the sheety but you gotta be safe about it kiddo" then i gotta get 8+ cavities filled woo (my mental health is shit so my mouth had to suffer apparently) )
but in other news i graduated from highschool!
as y'all should know i ended up dropping out sometime in november to take the ged.
at somepoint last month i finally went in, took the tests and passed them all, so i now have a lovely diploma that essentially says "you did it now you dont have to worry about school ever again until you decide to go to college!
highkey easiest tests i ever took in my life. 
anyway! i hope i can figure out how to get outta this slump! ill try to be more active on here soon!! bye!!!!!!!
:bulletorange::bulletblack:
:bulletpurple:
November 4th 2017

"Another Eczema Journal"

so i went to a dermatologist for the first time in my life on wednesday, it was really cool tbh
uh, the derm was like "hey so you probably wont grow out of this, you are actually the 1 percent that doesnt" and im like 
"hmm, interesting"
then he said "here take this miracle shit, rub it on your skin and in three or four days your skin will be clear and not feel so leathery"
nd im like "ok cool"
nd here i am, sobbing bc my skin is almost completely clear okay

like if you guys didnt know, you know know that i've missed at least 5 days bc of how horribly my skins been doing recently.
uh, two weeks ago my legs were uhh constantly bleeding and i couldnt even walk without wanting to cry


but not im just so nice and clear of bad skin, the worst of it is gone, theres only a few spots that still need to be dealt with man im so happy
:bulletpurple:
:bulletorange:
April 8th, 2017

"so, yeah"

today was pretty good i gotta dish out some info
got a new controller, and it connects to my pc so i can actually play overwatch now lol
uh, i cleaned out the car so i feel good about that, 
i'm gonna clean my room and maybe the kitchen while i listen to some hella good beats

bc normally id probably be like, ah hell i dont wanna but like
i was stabbed in both arms this morning to get the meningitis shots bc i guess you gotta do that at 16? but yeee they gave me t w o olliepops instead of one, i wasnt even expecting any shots today lmao
and instead of sleeping until like, 3 pm i had to get up at 8 or something to go see docs and stuff
my left arm is sore thoug but honestly i dont give a fuck, i feel fuckin great?
like i dont even feel any resemblance of shitty numb dead inside feelings and its fucking fantastic ;v;

today was good, im gonna clean my room now. 
:bulletorange:
:bulletblack:
March 23rd, 2017

"This week was shit tbh:

This got really long, i got a bit carried away im sorry


not gonna lie i want a refund it was horrible
    ive had pretty bad artblock all week and just spat out the pipsqueak drawing bc i picked the colors out and took all week to do
    then that vent was like, it took three days to sketch bc i just couldn't think of how to go about drawing it
    then another two days to line it and color it, but it was hell 
and thanks to this trying to bottle shit up i keep having these shitty breakdowns where i just close off and start crying 
like damn today was b a d i took a five minute nap in class right before lunch, and when i woke up i felt fucking awful,
awful as in that terrible numb feeling in your chest i hated it
and like, during lunch i couldnt shake it off so like, i just crawled behind the bench and started crying, then i thought i was okay but nope
when im asked "whats wrong" im like "i ddon t know" and start crying again like

i d ont even know what caused it im just like *wakes up* *wants to kms*

and i think ive been sleeping i bit more than i normally do, bc like
ive cut the sleeping in class for a few months, but this week ive gotten back into sleeping during a little bit of fourth period, then most of fifth and sixth period?
even though ive been sleeping all night with the exception of like, five minutes before crabdad walks in to wake me up? 
i mean shit, i could barely keep my eyes open in sixth today bc i felt so tired and so awful

but yeah then like, there's probably not eating right recently bc i usually dont eat breakfast, i usually get some food from jessie, jake, and sam for lunch, and then dinner is something like, checkers or a tv dinner
i almost never drink much of anything during the day either, like i think this week is the most ive drank at school, b/c i just filled the to-go pringles cans with water and put some mio in it
thats another thing, i dont drink normal af water, its always soda or water with mio or other shit in it

in fact i think thats just my diet straight up now

anyway 

gosh i need to go clean bearbear bc shes so fucking dirty now
but yeah sorry this got longer than i meant it to be im just like
meh right now i might take a shower and go to bed after i get bearbear washed and stuff
:bulletblack:
:bulletblack:
March 17th 2017

"what the fuck"

i honestly wish i could vent but uh
one, the person i normally vent to, i literally don't fucking trust anymore, and
two, i feel like venting to anyone else is awkward to me and i end up just, not saying anything?

and then its like, i dont have the goddamn energy to draw or write anything?
and im just kinda sitting here shaking b/c i cant do anythign about it 

i dunno at this point i think i'll just bottle shit up and deal with it
:bulletblack:


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i love these people and you should too

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they're all extremely wonderful and deserving of love 

:iconagentkk: :iconecho-of-the-sea: :iconsylc0r3: :iconprongs0216: :iconweredragon666: :iconatomicslic3: :iconmister-jackass: :iconkelsskmc: :iconartsythealpaca::iconniedopalek: :iconbilly-cash: :icontrapstepgirl: :iconrexdogo:


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